Painful Peace

God grant me the ability to accept the things that I cannot change.
this was the birth of this project and the start of the process
finding the right sounds to drive the message , Painful Peace.
now, three years later and approximately 150 records reduced to 36.
The project is final turned into a mix that can be downloaded and played
in your Ipod, car, or personal MP3 player. Burning it to cd is also
an option, although unless you have software that has track segmenting features
I wouldn't recommend this method.
The Name implies an observation of the the vulnerable human state of being.
All the trappings of fantasy love, changing direction in ones life, around to
why society as a whole appear at times to have failed.
this mix asks how tolerable are you as a person, for other cultures.
it asks, do you still dream. can you change or are you to so set in your ways, that
you have nothing to motivate you anymore.
are you satisfied. do you know what you think you know.
The reason it took so long to get this mix done is because it kept sounding like
what everyone else was doing. or the records that all the favorite House and disco Jocks
where playing. one version was so hype that it distracted away from any appreciable message.
once you you start rocking, its too hard to listen to the lyrics or transition making a statement
or asking a question.
other versions would have the opposite affect and would play like a bedtime story (yawn.........)
and you'd need a pot of coffee to finish the whole mix.
I have the obstacle of content size stopping me from finishing the video that was accompany
this mix. its almost 3 hours long and supplying it over the web would not fit what most down loaders would be interested
in doing to the hard drives, understandably so.
I start the segment with a view of reinventing one's self after a failed
relationship, and then deal with the subject of love.
Relationships are often challenged by politics and so goes the mix.
I related to the political state that we have found ourselves in, in these recent years.
I have always carried the hope that no matter how difficult the situation may be, that
hope should continue. the content from that moment on speaks to the search of hope in self, situation, and others.


I wanted a tempo that would kinda keep you in your chair but tuned in.
I wanted it to be a treat for the experienced listener. not necessarily the House
officiano or Disco historians for that matter. but just the person that has been around for
awhile, been in a few doors in their life and appreciate hearing the disco and classic R&b
cut once again, served in a way that you would remember the venues, and all those crazy nights and faces.

near the second half of part 2 is when I let the dogs loose.
now its time to dance. we get their by acknowledging that at least mentally, the problems of the world have
been solved. it is time to rejoice. it is time to reinforce what we have taught
ourselves through parts 1 and 2's accompanying thought. we can really solve this!
and yet we are suspicious that it could be only a dream.
what if part of it is only a dream? the part where everything is made ok..
I end the mix with that on my heart. I end at an inner awareness that I am beginning
to wake up - into my waking sad state of only problems and no solutions. Painful Peace.
A love story of life where one would rather endure than give up, give in and just let go.